Well, journal another year in the unlife of Darien Fang has come and gone but this year brought me more happiness than I have ever experienced. So much good has happened to me in 2006 and I dont ever want it to end.Most of all, I have a family again. When ma petit Caresse vanished from my life I merely existed. Trina hiding my children from me, the disappearance of my daughter, Katia, not hearing from my Mere or my twin...all left me with an unbearable void. I didnt think I would come out of my dreary depression but little by little things in my life changed and have brought me to this point.
I married Laura, my Amunet returned to me and now...I have my Aidan. Tonight was incredible. I dont even know where to begin. It started out actually a couple of days ago he presented a ring to me. Imagine that! Me, a ring...I get giddy just thinking about it. Nobody has given me anything in such a long time, I couldnt help but smile the whole night...staring at it. I should have felt awkward but I didnt and that is the whole beauty of this. Its like, I've known him somehow from somewhere and his proclaiming his love for me just seems right. Well, anyway, yesterday for my birthday he made me smile again by offering me a rose and a poem. He's so romantic! Again, I couldnt help but smile, Im even smiling from ear to ear at this very moment just remembering my expression. He seemed amused at my reations to all this. He even said I could let my guard down now cuz he was gonna take care of me. Im always the one protecting and taking care of the women in my life, lavishing them with gifts and memories but now someone has stepped up to take care of me, lavish me with love and gifts and frankly, I am stunned by it. And then there was tonight. I couldnt sleep I had to jot this down...I dont ever want to forget this night not that I ever really can but Aidan took me. Never in my life or unlife have I allowed another man to touch me let alone weaken me by feeding from me, as 
my Aidan drank from me, made love to me, he proclaimed his love for me. If I could be sore come tomorrow, believe me I would be. He told me if I needed to drink from him would gladly give up his unlife for me. There is only one other person that has ever said that they would die for me but when she said it, somehow it didnt have the same impact as Aidan's words did. They maybe true but maybe because Laura and I are always fighting, things are just said to make it seem like they are just words or maybe they are said a little too late. Speaking of late...she's forgotten my birthday, my Amunet remembered, I received a wonderful projection from her, the poor girl has very busy as of late. I love all my chylder, I know they love me and I love them. I actually feel again. Laura made me feel at first...but now all she makes me feel is anger...Aidan and Amunet make me feel...good. Laura told me something yesterday that she has so very wrong. That Aidan and Amunet do as I say...not really, they dont do as I say...they do for me from within their desire to do for me not because I tell them to do things. And I didnt even tell Aidan that it was my birthday thats how in tune he is to me, my needs, my life. I dont trust easy, I never have but I trust him...I cant explain it but I do....Aidan is etched into my dark soul....
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