Eternally Gone

Back in New Orleans the mansion is undergoing major renovations. Me and my family are staying in the west wing while the east wing is being worked on. They are working night and day and making great time. I wonder if Nerise will ever come back and what her thoughts would be on her son returning back to the mansion of the one who stirs his rage. Darius is dead, I have not felt my father in so long (and I wish not to) I know he will not return so I am taking my lover's advice and tearing out the insides of this place and rebuilding it as my own. This will now be Darien Fang's home. Lucky are those that get to step foot on its grounds. Here just a few days already turmoil begins.

Ive known all along that Laura would die by my hand I just never knew exactly when. Well the day has come. She pushed my buttons once too many times, gave me the instruction to rid me of her life and I took advantage of it in all my anger. Its been a couple of days and I've finally come to grips after being in a daze. As much as I hate to admit it, she did bring me happiness at one time, even her pushing my buttons gave me a sense of comfort but not lately. Lately, all I've gotten from her was disdain and contempt. Oh, she would tell me that she loved me and that she would do anything that I asked but her actions didnt support her words and all I would sense from her was disgust. She didnt want to be near me, she was jealous of Amunet and Aidan, that was clear as night. When she was by my side, I could sense her trying to love me but she didnt. I knew it, I felt it and obviously, I didnt tolerate it. She could tell me what I wished to hear all she wanted until I was blue in the face :::pauses and blinks at the comment::: but her actions and her essence told me otherwise. I may be blonde but Im certainly not dumb.

Not that I would ever forget it but her death was painful as she hung by the common room drapes. Ceiling to floor windows can not hide from the Lousianna sun and I felt every inch of her flesh burn away and I even as she died, she told me she loved me. My track record stuns me.

Thank Cain for my Amunet and my Aidan. They are truly a part of me and when Laura perished I leaned on them heavily and they allowed me to grieve, keeping me busy and distracted, so to speak, so as not to keep my mind and heart from dwelling. And now I can face another day. They will never let anything or anyone every hurt me, Aidan especially. I thought Laura was my true love. Goes to show that I know nothing of love but I do know Amunet truly loves me. And she will be the only woman I will ever love. She feels so different from Laura. And Aidan, Cain do I love Aidan. He's so strong and determined. What I feel for him is beyond words so I cant put any down. He is my safety. He shares my soul and I love him.

I only need those two in my life. No one or anything will ever come between them and me.