I can't stop these feelings, the nightmares have started again and this time I know Caresse needs me. My sleep has been restless. I left Blue at the cemetary and after a bit of a snack (which is sparse here anymore) I came to the mausoleum for my daily slumber...but didnt get any. I awoke with a start screaming for ma petit...I have to find her. The nightmares were so vivid as she called to me. Last I heard she was in DC fighting off demons from her dreams and even though she was glad to see me, she was awfully distressed, unkept and literally mad. I fear for her well-being. Now any ventures that come up will have to wait....I leave for DC at dusk.
Since I couldnt sleep I went to the apartment and found the scroll from Trina. A bottle of aged bloodwyne, roses and a note from the Tzim Bytch...the abyss seems to agree with her. I drink to your darkness, mon ange and as the wyne warmed my cold body, I sat and reminisced on all the times we spent together. They were good times while they lasted and nobody will or can take them away. But this restless rogue will move on. One thing never changes about Trina and that is her keen sense of my next move...yes...she wished both of us everything we deserve. Hmm, that can be almost anything I guess...good fate? ill fate? who knows but she knows Ive held tight to my unprecedented friendship with the Antideluvian Ventrue...and yes, Ive proclaimed my feelings for her but she knows I dont sit long in one place and I dont expect her to hold tight to me either. I come and go as I please...I came and went with Trina....I came and went with Nikki....I came and went with...:::thinks a moment::: well, alright I left Kalleah...but I've loved all of them and still do...they will always be a part of my heart....just not my life.
As for the boyz, I will not bother them. Trina wants to keep them from the world....from me that is her decision and it might be for the best. Oh she says I am welcome to see them but she knows well enough I will not bother her again. Besides, losing kids isnt the first time....Ive lost all of mine now, truly alone....by choice I admit...by choice. :::snorts:: its not like I have any legacy to leave behind...been here for two centuries...I dont have the luck of final death though Im sure there are those that wish me dead.
So I will pack a few items and seek shelter from the sun and at dusk I find my twin.
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